Monday, June 23, 2014

My thoughts after reading Say What You Will by Cammie McGovern



Say What You Will … What’s not say about this book? Thought provoking was the first thing that came to mind after I read the last page of the book. Can I say something if I can say something, this book is wonderfully amazing. I don’t use the term emotional roller coaster, but to say that would not be doing the book justice. And hopefully I am not spoiling it too much for anyone who has not read the book yet.

Say What You Will is about Amy and Matthew who form a friendship that goes beyond love. When you first start reading the book you begin to learn that Amy has Cerebral Palsy and Matthew has OCD. But once you read it you forget about it. Well at least I did. Not in a bad way. I commend this book because it’s the first I have read with diversity in it. At the same time it makes you forget everyone is different but the same when it comes to matters of the heart. It respects the characters enough to not make their disabilities the thing that defines them.

It’s about how the power of friendship can bring about the best and worst in people. Worst not being always intentional, just something that happens when you care about someone so much that you are focused on wanting to help them you do not see that can hurt their feeling as well. Because you have tunnel vision and can’t see what is going on around you.

I read this book in two days. I could have read it in one day, but I do have to work. Don’t judge me. Just kidding. But I could have.

What I love about this story is how they are best friends and the whole time they know in their hearts they are in love. You can’t help but smile when Matthew and Amy are walking down the hallway and he blushes when he accidentally bumps into her. Or, when he talks about how pretty she is but she has no idea of what he thinks because he hasn’t told her. And you can’t help but see Matthew and Amy for who they really are past the physical or emotional disabilities.

That conversation Amy has with Matthew on their last day of summer is heartbreaking. I could not sleep after reading it. Seriously, I was like I can’t believe she said that to him about her and Sanjay. (I know as Holden would say, “fictional characters.”) I do know the point she as trying to make on why she slept with Sanjay, but my heart still broke for Matthew.

I know when after the baby was born Amy made the point again that she wanted to prove she could be independent. I felt like when Matthew said he was meant to be with her taking care for her, it is not the way she thought. He did not mean like the way her parents shelter her. Speaking of her parents I can’t believe her mother did not want Matthew to see Amy. I can’t believe she said if Matthew’s OCD has been disclosed he would never been a peer helper for Amy. I have a felling even if Amy did not have Cerebral Palsy, her mother would still think Matthew wasn’t good enough.

I smiled again while reading the last couple of pages of the book because with all that had happened Amy and Matthew found their way back to each other. What I took from this book was that sometimes real love is not perfect, it can be messy and sometimes people get hurt. But if two people truly love each other they can find each other no matter what. I love this book. I do hope I did not ruin it too much for anyone who has yet to read Say What You Will. Seriously you need to read it.

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